Radiotherapy

Feel as fraud today. Alert, energetic. Feel like I ought to set off for college and start wrestling with the spreadsheets again.

Very tired yesterday which is the worst side effect so far. The strange thing is that my back problem seems to have gone and I am walking better than I have for years. Could be the steroids or could be the prolonged rest or could be not driving. This is now like when I was in hospital last year. Lots of rest, looking for things to break up the day - this is the time for a shower, this is the time for a cup of tea, now walk down to the shop, now prepare for visiting time.

Why am I not bored? It would be easy to get obsessed with checking whether my ability to reason is weakening. Did a crossword last night, getting frustrated with patience on the PC so have stopped. Tried to do a bit of OU maths earlier this week but unble to concentrate.

Met Esther, the McMillan Nurse yesterday. This is what they do, make contact so they know who I am if and when I need help. A very impressive lady. She has sorted out my application for Disability Living Allowance, arranged for me to have free prescriptions. My next appointment at the hospital had been a bit slow coming so she phoned them up and it was sorted immediately! I am to see the radiotherapy consultant on August 29.

The first RT nurse I met fitted me with the face mask and said "This is much better than Chemotherapy because it is targetted on the specific area"
The second time another one said "We do not do targetted RT in your sort of case. We irradiate your whole head so that you have low dose low side effects. Your hair will drop out in about 4 weeks from now."
Esther said "they will have targetted your tumours because they can only do it once. Your hair will drop out soon or not at all."

We shall see! I have grasped the point that it is all uncertain. I shall look a right nana if it all fizzles out.